DID i lose or not?

I feel its so ironic. Is it me, or am i losing weight or am i gaining weight instead, or is my weighing scale damaged?! I've lost 2-3kg already, well thats what the weighing scale said, but whereas, he suggested that instead i have gained weight from back before, and he is the one instead that has lost weight. So what is what? i feel like i have lost weight, coz i see myself everyday in the mirror, i observe, and someone comes along and tells you that "SERIOUSLY", i have gained weight.

Isn't is ironic?? So who do i believe? the weighing scale, the 'human' comments, or myself?! i chose to believe in myself. As you know "weight,size" these are sensitive words to a woman. And im the kind i can just heck care, butits just very contridicting to think im losing weight, and someone tells you that you are gaining!!.

Sighz, all the irony, if only someone else can see me physically and tell me whether did i not lose weight or not. But who else will see me? except for my collegues whom i see them all the time..

Oh well, im on the "eat-all-you-can" in the morning to noon, but cut it down at night. No food after 7pm, and skip those chicken and meat. Its helping, or isit am i contridicting myself. AHH headache...

rants

ITS MISERABLE enough that i have to give up all my social LIFE!
What the hell am i doing in the first place?!

Gosh. freak. damn. I need myself back..

Noob

Ok yeah..
i bought a new digi cam, well, coz i think frankly i NEED IT. though i have my camera phone, but its only good in day, coz it has no flash. And gee, my bloody phone cost twice as much as my camera. *faints*
and i regret that i should have gotten it earlier, coz there were so many times i really wish i need a camera. Like example, my bro's wedding, till now from last year december untill THIS very date, i have absolutely NO pictures! Common' i need some memories..All were from the professional photographers, or my aunt's, cousin's camera. And my mum, HAS no idea how to send them properly to my email from their camera. And i have been pestering my mum, when is my bro gonna put up his wedding pictures up online, and im still waiting for em to notify me of the website. ( no matter how i googl-ed search, i just couldnt find, so i reckon they haven even started on the uploading of pictures yet.) ANGRY...

And at times, when i was out with my collegues for clubs and drinks, damn, all their pics are in their camera, but i can't get it, coz i have to keep reminding them, but it ends up they keep forgetting, so i just got tired of asking. So hence, I HAVE NO UPDATES... well come to think about it, im getting old.. *sob sob*, i need to at least rem my life when im still in my 20s. arghh..:P but im still a noob in digi-cams, and yea yea, i know the "in" thing is SLRs already. IM "w..o...l...s.." ( in case u duno what that means, spell it backwards) So newae, im still playing around with my own 'toy', figuring out the modes. but not too much pics, coz the stupid salesman gave me the wrong SD card to buy instead of the micro card.

Newae, my dinner. :P There were 20 prawns, i ate 17, i should have bought another set. *groans*.....

All the irony

You know, it seems so contradicting. I have been waking up early, having my bfast and lunch earlier than most. And the irony is that i like to bring my food into my room, in front of my lappy and TV to eat under my own privacy. But the prob, i have to do it, so that there won't be any of my sharemates seeing me bringing the food in, thus i have to " smuggle" it

But if anyone of them is out, i will 'curse' and 'swear' coz i have problems bringing the food in, and ill have to eat in the living room. Just like my fish, which is in the oven now... grrrr.
Ok, its not that i CAN"T bring my food in, but if they find out, it will be not very nice, as they have been repriminded by the 'care-taker' of this house NOT to bring food into the rooms. So its all due respect, you wouldnt want them to think " shit, they could bring food in, but we can't".

Ack, my fishy fishy fishy is still stuck in the oven, i didnt expect one of my sharemate to be back so early, i think i should have an in-built 'kitchen' in my room.

i think im pathetic....

Im really starting to think that my life is getting even more boring than it should be.
Or perhaps im totally cut of from my social and entertainment life, basically the only things i do is to EAT, TV, STUDY, WORK, SLEEP.
And seriously, the only time where i can enjoy, is once a week, when i 'take' myself out for a simple, 'one-man-show' groceries shopping. But then again, i do not really like the crowd, so i'd always end up at some secluded shopping mall so that i have my space to walk.

ISN"T THAT PATHETIC?!!

Now im trying to find somethings that i have done or did in the past few weeks or days, that is worth mentioning, but as i crack my brain, i cant find anything!

This all happens when you start sharing your life.....

SpOngyBob vs JoLLy ShAndy

I think i really have to find something interesting to write. Or blog. im getting too lazy to be on internet already. Busy with my cable TV, and have been like watching "SpongeBoB Square Pants" every day and night. And even NOW...GOSH.
You know that yellow "spongey" like cartoon character who lives at the bottom of the sea?


SOooOooo... Cute and so dumb. and so stupid. With his "best buddy" that "Patrick" the starfish. Oh well, i have watched so many episodes of it, i think i have been seeing the repeated ones. But hell yea.. i still like it. Whoever has a pet snail that "meows"? How cute...

Talking bout " meows". I miss my pet dog.( ok duh, she barks not meows..) My lil baby Shandy. back home in Singapore.. :( if i could bring her over to Aust, i would have done so, but so not allowed.

She looks like a cross-breed of a "kangaroo, fox, horse, jack-russell" terrier. Seriously. Some even says she looks like a mouse. Awww..i cant wait to go back home for holidays and cuddle her again. And her name "ShandY" was named after the 1 percent alcohol beverage " jolly shandy" Ha, when i had her, i was only a minor, and i always drank "jolly shandy" and its a real big thing for me. :P

hey, it still has alcohol u knoe, and they always check I.Ds still, coz of that 1 percent.
But its kinda uniue, better than all those common names like " milo, cookies, ".
As i grew older, i thought i should name her " Martell". Gosh how cool.....