Wishing

It's beyond my control. Wish to have man after God's heart. i wish he made me safe. consistently. my anxiousness is usually prolonged and caused by him. do i have to keep taking pills everytime im anxious by him? something must be wrong. i wish the Lord can help me or help him seek You. i just have to sacrifice myself to suffer silently.

Just talking to the wall

We can't change people. We don't like or we dislike. We can say it out. But we can't change them if they don't want to change. Moral expectations. Mannerism.

People hurt people. We are hurt by their behaviour. They are hurt by ours. The words we use to express feelings. 

When we are feeling sour and sore inside, when the situation is not sweet. It's best to keep quiet. We keep thinking to keep quiet. But why do we stil explain our unhappiness?

Because i thought if I don't say it, they will never know. But actually....they already know without me saying it.

My character and is sliding. Because it's so messed up with another.

~something to blame again~