Ive ran out of motivation to blog. Coz if i spent too much time thinking on what to write on this online typing mode, i lost my connection to writing my own 'manual-handwritten" diary.
But whats interesting is that, these two have different life events which comes about different feelings in two different writing modes. Perhaps will be interesting to read them back say.... half a decade later?? And one will start to laugh at how silly i was before. I started writing a diary since i was like 12, and im still continuing... untill im passed on definitely. Because memories sometimes fade overtime, words are needed to recollect these memories. And knowing all the hurt and sadness that you had, reading them back proves it doesn't hurt anymore....
School has started, newae this is a really random post. I have actually finished my studies last sem, but im continuing to my post-grad just so that i can prolong my stay. Nevertheless, i do not think im going back to my home country for good.
Went to class today, shockingly knowing im the only asian in the class, even though my school is made up of 'millions' of international studenst. Perhaps this unit is mainly for the minority, something to do with creative writing, which at least i know i kinda like and have interest for. But perhaps i still do not know what i wanna do in life. Some customer just asked me yesterday, what i wanted to do in life... i was like going on in circles, with no clue.. and the answer we both had and smiled was " Full of shit".
Seriously, what the hell do i want to do in life.. i cant study forever. I used to have three careers i wanted to go into 1) Air Stewerdess ( due to tattoos, i wont be able to pass the test..but i realise they are just 'waitresses' in the air but with higer income-no offence as i respect all jobs. 2) Music DJ. ( but i took that amount of money to study for a relevant degree instead of setting up my console-which is not so viable) 3) Modeling.(face/runway) ( but i had to lost that thought after my bike accident.).
SOoooOOooo.... whats is to be then? People say, one day one will eventually know.. so the question is WHEN for me???
~~~Back to Reality~~~
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