Like im single....

So.. Immigration visa is all done :) All that fuss when they said they would be happy to give me a visa to return to australia anytime. Bleah. all they wanted was money.
Newae.. I had hell of an adventure today.. really.

Shoes have arrived. Freaking fast. I was still asleep when the delivery guy came. One was being refunded back to me coz they ran out of stock. And my boots were a tad too small. It was all the same sizes. I just hate it when they don't look the same size coz of the cuts. I should've just stick to the notion " just-get-the-biggest-size", coz i knoe in asian sizing, i prob have big feet. :X


Anyway, about my adventure today, Im just gonna sum it up:
FIRST, i was planning to train it to the city, but the park n ride was full so i drove in.
Took the wrong freeway, BIG DETOUR.
Hard to find parking, Paid, left walked.
Realised stupid immigration has moved.
Since i paid for parking, decided to take a shuttle bus down. REACHED
Took a que number, waited. WRONG ticket. had to re-que. waited. EMBARASSING
Finally!
Everything done, too easy. Wanted to shop nearby but can't coz my car is gonna be over-parked.
Rained....
Return to car, extended ticket. HUNGRY
Wanted to go to a place where i know i could be okay along. Walked
Reached. CLOSED. ( urghhh) Walked back to car. =(
Rained...........
Needed beer, needed food, but shy to walk alone into a bar.
Decided to pop in to my previous working bar, had drinks. said hi. NO food. Loss of appetite.
( whoever wanna eat at the place they worked esp when they know it inside out.)
Bored. Car gonna be over-parked again. If i stay any longer i'll be getting drunk.
Went to find friend. FOOD FINALLY.
MOVIE.
HOME.
Took me 12 hours today.. weeeeet.
Like im single..

( The emotional and more private details will go into my diary *grins)

-Tash-

Waiting for the Post Man..~~

I'm Waiting for the Post-Man to come, Im waiting for that cute delivery guy to come... I'm waiting for my shoes, bags, accessories to come.. laalaa

Will post em up when its here..

The joy and suspense of doing online shopping till it reaches your hand.. ;0

they never knew...

TASHA WANTS TO SLEEP....... AND NEVER WAKE UP..

Empty... Hurting,

round and round she goes,
in circles she doesn't know.
No edge to lean on
that brings a painful thought.

Covered in cobwebs
sticky and tangled.
Her prey a metre away,
so sad, but she is stuck in the way.


Help scrawls fast from another
biting of the tangles and starches.
Freeing the little poor one,
back to the perfect sqaure one.


Tash loves.. TASHA DIES....

Im Back.. Earlier than I should.

There are too many bots entering my blogs. Its irritating.

Anyway, I've got some thoughts or maybe a lot. In other words, I'll just take it as, "If I can't handle it, I'm avoiding it"

Well, I tried.

Sometimes, people think we know what they are thinking, and they get frustrated when we don't think like they think. But sometimes, little do they know, they really are not saying what they are thinking but hoping we would catch the drift. ( now, this sentence make perfect sense, myself gets confuse from understanding it)
Simply= GO straight to the point. Add simple words, baby kindergarten words. Words u use to talk a kid so they could understand. "goo-goo-gahh-gahh-cutie-cutie-doggie-woof" Because, what's the point if everyone is just gonna get frustrated and start ignoring each other because I-don't-get-what-u-mean-and-im-answering-it-all-wrong. ( because i know i talk with hidden meanings and i used to tell myself " im-like-this" but i got scolded big time.)

I kinda learn a lot from my experiences throughout the years. But i think...i've learnt it the wrong way, it kinda changed me in a way too. Because I had the experience and bad ones, I avoid doing the same things again. But ya know something? DON'T learn from your experiences. Everyone, everything, every situation is different. If you put your experiences into place with that situation, it might makes things worst or not even work at all. ( Ok what am i saying. get my point? coz i ain't straight to the point)

Anyway, my health and life is kinda screwed up, and I know I haven't been taking care of myself lately. Im always looked upon as the 'independent' feller who doesn't need any help. Oh well, im starting to get tired of finding advices on my own, finding and solving my own problems. Im here, Im here alone. But this was what i wanted. Away from all the fire and steam. But i realised, the problems flew together with me here. It only feels good running away for that year and I'm just struggling after trying to stay here and going crazy with immigration coz-i-will-be-chaining-myself-to-something-if-they-have-to-send-me-back.

I guess we are never satisfied, you can sort of say I'm just starting to lay back and i just need someone around to make sure i have eaten good, been good, been taking meds when im sick, been eating healthy, been alright lately, feeling alright lately.. etc..In other words. I hate feeling and being alone.Sometimes you have this good day, bad day, bad news, good news. I kinda do not know who to tell. This is weird. And i have been having this massive migraine that has been going on since Sunday till now. It feels like i've got little men, settling themselves, making a little world of their own by drilling and hammering into my brain, swinging around with ladders and ropes, smoking, drinking all in my head.. ( now that's getting cute). Ok nah seriously i get worried coz its been days. But as i said, I probably can't handle it, so im avoiding all that.'I think my new MV says it all..'

These are thoughts.. MY thoughts, any correspondence to any living or dead is purely coincidental. And these are just thoughts that are not meant to be used, abused, and mis-used and purely meant for reading, not for attention. duhx * gins*

Tash a.k.a Tasha