Anyway, I've got some thoughts or maybe a lot. In other words, I'll just take it as, "If I can't handle it, I'm avoiding it"
Well, I tried.
Sometimes, people think we know what they are thinking, and they get frustrated when we don't think like they think. But sometimes, little do they know, they really are not saying what they are thinking but hoping we would catch the drift. ( now, this sentence make perfect sense, myself gets confuse from understanding it)
Simply= GO straight to the point. Add simple words, baby kindergarten words. Words u use to talk a kid so they could understand. "goo-goo-gahh-gahh-cutie-cutie-doggie-woof" Because, what's the point if everyone is just gonna get frustrated and start ignoring each other because I-don't-get-what-u-mean-and-im-answering-it-all-wrong. ( because i know i talk with hidden meanings and i used to tell myself " im-like-this" but i got scolded big time.)
I kinda learn a lot from my experiences throughout the years. But i think...i've learnt it the wrong way, it kinda changed me in a way too. Because I had the experience and bad ones, I avoid doing the same things again. But ya know something? DON'T learn from your experiences. Everyone, everything, every situation is different. If you put your experiences into place with that situation, it might makes things worst or not even work at all. ( Ok what am i saying. get my point? coz i ain't straight to the point)
Anyway, my health and life is kinda screwed up, and I know I haven't been taking care of myself lately. Im always looked upon as the 'independent' feller who doesn't need any help. Oh well, im starting to get tired of finding advices on my own, finding and solving my own problems. Im here, Im here alone. But this was what i wanted. Away from all the fire and steam. But i realised, the problems flew together with me here. It only feels good running away for that year and I'm just struggling after trying to stay here and going crazy with immigration coz-i-will-be-chaining-myself-to-something-if-they-have-to-send-me-back.
I guess we are never satisfied, you can sort of say I'm just starting to lay back and i just need someone around to make sure i have eaten good, been good, been taking meds when im sick, been eating healthy, been alright lately, feeling alright lately.. etc..In other words. I hate feeling and being alone.Sometimes you have this good day, bad day, bad news, good news. I kinda do not know who to tell. This is weird. And i have been having this massive migraine that has been going on since Sunday till now. It feels like i've got little men, settling themselves, making a little world of their own by drilling and hammering into my brain, swinging around with ladders and ropes, smoking, drinking all in my head.. ( now that's getting cute). Ok nah seriously i get worried coz its been days.
But as i said, I probably can't handle it, so im avoiding all that.'I think my new MV says it all..'These are thoughts.. MY thoughts, any correspondence to any living or dead is purely coincidental. And these are just thoughts that are not meant to be used, abused, and mis-used and purely meant for reading, not for attention. duhx * gins*
Tash a.k.a Tasha
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